WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT?

 Why did I start this blog?  And why should you read it?  Great questions, and I'll do my best to answer them.   Short answer, I needed a place to put my thoughts about what I've been going through.   I identify as a straight man, and I've only ever wanted romantic, long term, sexual relationships with women.  I'm currently in a loving marriage with a woman, and I'm planning on spending the rest of my life with her.   But there's one thing about me that she doesn't know.  That no one knows.  And that is that I'm attracted to men.  Specifically, their butts.  Not to get too vulgar, but if I could spend hours with my face between two smooth, muscular, juicy man-butt cheeks, I would do it in a heart beat.  

It feels weird to even type it, because it sounds ridiculous, doesn't it?  I have never had the urge to be in a romantic relationship with a man.  I don't even really like dicks that much.  They don't really do anything for me.  I hesitate to even call myself bisexual because I really don't want to really be with men. But butts?  They drive me wild.  As a straight man, I almost exclusively only watch gay porn because there's so much more man-ass in it.  I love the cheeks, the holes, all of it.  Rimming is my ultimate fantasy, both giving and receiving.  But - I've never done it.  I've never done anything with a man. 

Which leads me to why I started this blog.  I want to do something with a man.  As i'm getting older, and the world is becoming more open minded and less focused on labels, I'm coming around to the idea of trying something with another man.  But will I?  I have fantasies of what I'd like to try, scenarios of how things will play out, and I get such a thrill from just writing them, so this blog will be filled with stories, fantasies, questions, and experiences and I dip my toes into this exhilarating new world.

If you're going through something similar, I'd love to hear from you.  I'd love to find a community of like minded straight men who don't necessarily hate the idea of "fooling around".  Feel free to comment or email me.  Let's enjoy this new world together.